5 Days Pre-Op

Yesterday was the very first time I had any sort of cold feet.  I felt icky - heachache, backache, hangry (hungry and angry) and miserable in every sense of the word.  For a split moment, I questioned my decision to have the surgery.  The "what-ifs" fluttered my brain - What if it wasn't successful?  What if I self sabotage?  What if there is a major complication?  What if they have to open me up?  What if, what if, what if?  Just as soon as those thoughts raced through my mind, most rationality returned and I determined my lack of solid food (11 days ago) and carbs caused these racing thoughts.  Now 12 days into my all liquid diet, I am confident in my decision.  I have a solid support system.  I am nervous - sure, but I know this is the decision for me.  I have worked so hard to make sure that I have set myself up for success.  I have been so strong during this all liquid diet, I know I can conquer the entire journey.  I have faith in me.  That's all that matters.